By Kenneth Sørensen
Psychoenergetics in Action
When I woke up this morning I felt more tired than usual. I was physically and emotionally exhausted and was in what I call a ‘compressed’ mood, as if I was at the bottom of the sea and could feel the pressure of the water above me. This compressed mood is familiar to me. When it hits I feel as if I’m hiking up a hill in a deep sea diver’s suit. This mood wastes great deal of emotional energy and makes me introverted. On such days I avoid small-talk and other superficial exchanges, and save my energy.
If this mood dominated me I would not have been able to create anything. Yet no matter how heavy I feel I can always achieve a positive state of mind, motivating me to work and to see life as essentially meaningful. I can access a strong will, and push through the resistance, and get on with what I want to create.
In these situations a polarity occurs between my emotions and my mind. Emotions are introverted and want to create more space and movement in the heavy atmosphere. My mental life is outgoing and disciplined and counts a day wasted if I haven’t accomplishing something. Both forces pull in different directions, yet neither is a true expression of who I am.
For the past 30 years I have meditated an hour or more each day. My mediations have helped to develop an inner center from where I can observe the different forces arising in my consciousness. Finding our inner centre of pure consciousness and will, as Roberto Assagioli would have called it, is the most important element of meditation.
When we become the observer of our psychological life, we reach a stable inner centre, a kind of anchor for our consciousness. It is the hub of a spinning inner wheel. Here we can observe what is happening to us without being “pushed” by our experience. We realize that there is a difference between ourselves and our experience. I know that I’m not my body, my feelings or my thoughts, but the inner consciousness that is expressed through these.
It is from the place of the observer that I can begin to do something about my feelings. If we passively allow the forces of our personality to control our lives we are not free. I realize I have a will, which I can use to make choices. The will to choose is related to the observer. As I take a step back in my consciousness I give myself the opportunity to choose which energies I want to identify with and express in my personality.
When we strengthen the loving observer we accept all that we are. Only then are we in a position to change ourselves. That which we reject or condemn tends to disappear below the surface of our consciousness. Acceptance is not passivity; it is the starting point for change.
Our meditative space is a kind of ‘laboratory of the soul’ where we can experiment with our psyche. When I woke up this morning, I realized that my compressed mood had returned. Through recognising it over time I have learned how to handle it. I have confronted the mood and asked what it needs. It needs sun, vitality and light – and that’s exactly what I’m going to give it.
The atmosphere is like a dark forest in a heavy fog. I don’t know why I have this dark forest inside me. But its existence has been a good thing. It has forced me to turn inwards and find my centre. This has strengthened me and helped me fine tune my perceptions so I can see through the fog of illusions.
I have developed a powerful meditative practice in which I visualize myself leaning into a giant sun that radiates through me and into the foggy landscape. I connect with Apollo, the Greek sun god. He had spontaneously appeared in my mind a few years ago and has been a strong source of archetypal solar power since. These archetypes are incredibly potent. For many people in the past these gods were the centre of their lives. They carry a dynamic energy that can be accessed and channelled when needed.
That’s exactly what I do on such mornings. Leaning into the Sun, Apollo recharges and revitalizes me. The fog lifts, and sometimes the heavy atmosphere disappears, seemingly miraculously. It gives me a boost, my emotional landscape becomes lighter and I have energy for the creative projects I’m passionate about. It gives me a strength like Atlas. I can carry my burdens, not necessarily with a smile, but with an inner calm that keeps me on course.
I say ‘miraculously’ but this is no miracle. The process is scientific. Energy follows thought so what we think in our heart, we become.
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